Pregnant Again.. DH Needs to Think...

After waiting almost two weeks for AF to show, and no dice, { she was SUPPOSED to show on 7/25 and decided to take an unscheduled vacation.. } I couldn't take it anymore - neither could Tom and he told me to go get a pregnancy test to make sure,- and sure enough, first shot, It came back with a !I showed the results to Tom when it was done, and he says - " so what does that mean?" I said " it means with your mother movin in , whenever she makes up her mind when that'll be , we're gonna have to make an addition on the house .. and gave him a wink. Well, He has been upset with me since sunday! Not the reaction I was looking for! In fact he has barely spoken to me! he has been slamming doors, snapping at me, talking to me like a child, taken my driving priviliges away-{ which i understand because I'm on medication and he doesnt want me have a seizure with fluctuating meds and hormones and stuff and get hurt or the baby-thats understandable- i'm only allowed to drive thomas to and from school while hes away on business right now thats it and he doesnt even like that. Due to the whole rocky road I went through w/ Thomas' pregnancy-{ I had a seizure, i had to go through many sonograms to monitor the babys progressio n due to the meds-make sure things were ok,the amnio-which is normal,the selective reduction,{i pray i don't need to do that this time- because i don't have the stregnth to do it again-that is if i have twins again-they say once you have twins you can have them again...then post i had sarcoidosis, so you can say Tom is not looking forward to me getting pregnant again, not to mention my body getting bigger- he said to me " you WILL NOT be putting on 75 pounds like last time -youre gonna eat normal and gain normal weightlike normal people" and no more drivin for you - why does he make me feel like I went to the clinic and in-vitroed myself w/o his knowing_ he had a hand {or body part}in this miracle of life too ya know! - cause he just makes me feel so terrible that I got pregnant right now! He hasn't shown the least bit of sign of happiness or excitement.He won't even share it with his mom, I asked if he wanted to tell her, he said it was none of her business, since Sunday, I've been doing nothing but moping and crying and eating three squares to keep this baby healthy and trying to figure out what's going on in his head. and the only thing I can think of, is he's scared. - His company is merging this week,some people will lose their jobs,they don't know who, his mom's supposed to move in with us, but she can't make up her mind when - we just know she can't afford to stay at her place,and that would be to to move into our computer/ guest room, and if/ when we have this baby, we ran out of rooms to put it as well as the desk/ office- we can always put it {computer } somewhere- familyroom wherever- as for the baby- theres a small space in our bedroom we can put a cribin the corner, but as it gets bigger we ran out of room, o maybe hes thinking of that- i wish he would just talk to me- he keeps everything bottled up inside and shuts me out until he explodes- its not fair or healthy- i always get the tail end of it-usually widing up in the bathroom with him giving me the attitude or silent treatment and me crying.-when all I want to do is share a lil joyin my family-so I turn to my son for a smile-any way- how's that for an announcement?Or ultimate Anniversary present for Tom{ so its a couple days late} - I go see my OB on the 25th for confirmation I'm hoping for a baby girl to even out the brood- one boy, one girl- sorry so long- maybe I shoulda saved it for a vents and rants?well, lets hope he cools off and comes around while hes up north this week, ans comes home with a new perspective and and a smile and a hug.. Thanks for the ear all-
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