Bye Bye Baby

Well,yesterday I had to say goodbye to my van. Although I didn't post it, { I was kind of embarrassed to} I was in a bad accident withit- I was taking it to be recalled to be fixed a week and a half ago - very minor actually, something with the water heater or something but could have led to major if it wasn't fixed, so I was on my way to bringing it in, and with all the things on my mind lately, with mom passing away recently, and the heat ,and just coming back from errands, and getting Thomas into kindergarten, my mind wasn't all with it I guess,and well, I guess I wasn't paying attention , and let the person in front of me go at the stop sign, then figured ok, my turn, then proceeeded to go after looking momentarily, and here comes an F150 and WHAM! Right into my left quarter panel as I'm making a left turn and spun me around in the opposite direction!Turned out he moved my engine, as well as did damage to other things, my air bag didnt go off which I wondered why, but heard was a good thing because they would have totaled it right then and there because its so expensive to fix. I got a ticket for not staying at the stop sign for specified time- which I paid a fine and took traffic school online to take the four points off my license he gave me. 117 dollar ticket - ow. but I deserved it. I'm fine, didn't get hurt at all, just was shaken up and VERY upset at the damage of my van that I just bought three months ago! He had barely a scratch on his bumper- he was towing a trailer full of stone roofing supplies which I think contributed to the force of the damage. - 8,000 dollars worth plus the body shop found more in estimates which found it not worth it to fix it resulting in totaling it. so there goes my insurance to the moon and now I'm carless as well. Double so thought I'd show you a before and after. Heres my baby before the accident-nice and pretty... and after- dopey-- lesson learned-drive more responsibly with an ultimate clear head and stop look and listen for at LEAST 7 seconds! So word to the wise let my mistake influence you.I'm SOO pissed, but SOO learned my lesson because I loved my van, and SOO miss it! Tom doesnt want me to drive again, but I'm hoping he changes his mind.. I just want to cry looking at these pictures...